tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56439792011-04-21T16:42:04.347-07:00...she must and shall go free...bethnoreply@blogger.comBlogger711100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1143357030306390892006-03-25T23:09:00.000-08:002006-03-25T23:10:30.306-08:00

i've misplaced my writing...used to write...now i don't...maybe it will show up soon...

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1126211198182454002005-09-08T09:48:00.000-07:002005-09-08T13:26:38.233-07:00

There is creation and Creator, nothing more. And creation gets all its meaning and purpose from God...piperdriftingset apart by sinleft alonestill, unmovinglosttraveling in darknessincompletetainted with disgustwashedcovered in His bloodyet drenched in this skinugly and uselesstorn and dimentedhopeless in my heartunpure and dissatisfiedwhere have i gonewhere else is there to turnsunkalone in

bethnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1125422245197060182005-08-30T10:12:00.000-07:002005-08-30T10:17:25.203-07:00

Brett and I went to Lake Brownwood a couple of weeks ago for his family reunion...spent a week there and when I got back to Lubbock I still felt like I was on the boat...and just in case any of you were wondering, I am definitely a pro wakeboarder now...as the picture above can prove..haha...if only you could have seen it...write more soon...

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1121272670021264512005-07-13T09:35:00.000-07:002005-07-13T09:37:50.026-07:00

its been a long time...have you ever felt like your life was going nowhere?? i think i'm in a rut or something...all i have been wanting to do is sleep...it seems like everyone around me is moving and i am standing still.brett just applied for a billion jobs all over the u.s. and he seems to be getting along with life...but i'm just here...dang.

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1120165610843282532005-06-30T14:06:00.000-07:002005-06-30T14:06:50.846-07:00

restless 

bethnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1085168674755398382004-05-21T12:43:00.000-07:002004-05-21T12:44:34.756-07:00

bretts gone jordan's still gone i don't have anybody's phone number anymore i've packed my house as much as i can repeat all of those three million more times i'm so stinkin bored this is not good

bethnoreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1084479025137831162004-05-13T13:09:00.000-07:002004-05-13T13:14:09.063-07:00

1. because i'm 23 years old and i'm allowed to 2. because they are so delicious 3. because they were free 4. because i needed a snack 5. because i love chocolate 6. because no one else is here to eat them 7. because there is virtually no mess...except maybe around my mouth...plastic container, plastic spoon...oh yeah

bethnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1084386385259108942004-05-12T11:26:00.000-07:002004-05-12T11:26:25.260-07:00

To boys who make you feel better 

bethnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1084386820845630382004-05-12T11:24:00.000-07:002004-05-12T11:33:40.846-07:00

i'm trying to write a song...i've got some words but i keep changing them when i try to put music to it and then i keep changing the music...its quite a frustrating process i've been feeling bad again...almost to the extent (as far as the headaches and exhaustion go) that i was feeling at the first of the fall semester...i'm not sure whats going on, but it did inspire todays post things that

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1084291516150724292004-05-11T08:50:00.001-07:002004-05-11T09:12:34.833-07:00

so brett has his electrophysiology exam on friday...they will be sticking a catheder through his leg into his heart to determine whats wrong, so please keep that in your prayers i finally posted a picture below this post i'm done with school!! woo hoo! today's random list: movies to watch when: you need a laugh -slackers: one word, jason schwartzman -3 amigos -nothing to lose -office space

bethnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1084286696681320142004-05-11T07:44:00.000-07:002004-05-11T07:44:56.680-07:00

i can be me 

bethnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1082755590614897062004-04-23T14:26:00.000-07:002004-04-23T14:29:30.840-07:00

i'm wearing my retainers...weird its high school all over again... my jaw has been hurting so i thought i'd pull the retainers out of retirement...its funny, you guys should call me later when i have them in because i can't talk i think i'm going to japan in july for free...awesome...i'll be going with lake highlands church in austin as a sponser for 6 kids who are going and the church is

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1080245974074101422004-03-25T12:19:00.000-08:002004-03-25T12:22:05.233-08:00

boyfriends roommates and sisters....what a weird and messed up life. wow it has been a long time since i've written...my apologies. pearce, you make me smile, i'll bring your books by very soon, I PROMISE :) sandy's moving out... man, there's lots of stuff going on, good, bad, pointless, but too much to talk about right now. last night i was leaving brett's house and it was dark outside and

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1077161568081867012004-02-18T19:32:00.000-08:002004-02-18T19:34:43.403-08:00

so yesterday i decided to quit playing the guitar out of frustration...lots of frustration...i cried and acted like a baby because this has taken me (well at least picking up strumming patterns) a lot longer to pick up than anything else i have attempted in my life. however, today i decided to come out of retirement :) because its just so soothing and peaceful and relaxing when i don't get all

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1076213220680525392004-02-07T20:07:00.000-08:002004-02-07T20:08:45.263-08:00

i'm pretty sure i'm addicted to gandy's french onion dip and ruffles chips...yeah, i definitely am...i thought this was just a phase, but do phases last for more than 2 months??? and how can one only want to eat that for every meal for 2 months? i've started intermural basketball (did i spell that right?) with some people with southcrest and we have won both games that we have played...we play

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1075415026323954392004-01-29T14:23:00.000-08:002004-01-29T14:25:21.530-08:00

there's something in the air thats making everyone go crazy.... plus i don't like capital letters...is that weird?

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1074624382853092012004-01-20T10:46:00.000-08:002004-01-20T10:47:48.560-08:00

hi pearce

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1074624012615871752004-01-20T10:40:00.000-08:002004-01-20T10:41:38.403-08:00

there are days...way too many days actually...when you go throughout the entire day without noticing the creation around you...not just the sky or the landscape but people and how beautiful they are the way that they were created by God. despite all of the sin and the desperate ugliness that comes with human flesh at times, those things which we choose to see more often than not, the qualities

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1071888252069319332003-12-19T18:44:00.000-08:002003-12-19T18:45:06.530-08:00

hi graham.

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1071888232644715772003-12-19T18:43:00.000-08:002003-12-19T18:44:47.106-08:00

hi everyone. sorry its been so long..quick update: hollie totaled her car so we have been sharing a car for the past 2 or 3 weeks and its been challenging to say the least to find rides for each other when the other has the car...stacey is coming home on monday...i'm officially not single...i'm doing a new devotion everyday from streams in the desert and i really enjoy it...God has done a lot in

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1070248162917899712003-11-30T19:09:00.000-08:002003-11-30T19:09:59.090-08:00

...i can't stand the sound of losing cotnrol but whenever You're around i can't find the breath to speak at all... the problems that i can't fix are driving me crazy...hollie's ed is out of control...she is falling under it and losing herself...brett's search for redemption has caved in on him...my family's obsession with having jodi home is eating away at everyone...and jodi is just...well,

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1069652469732035042003-11-23T21:41:00.000-08:002003-11-23T21:41:38.576-08:00

ah! two new AWESOME birthday discoveries! *tree left me two presents that i just discovered....he hid them well...1) new sarah mclachlan cd and 2) new empire records collector's edition dvd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ah! go tree!

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1069647009450334952003-11-23T20:10:00.000-08:002003-11-23T20:11:42.060-08:00

yah me...tomorrow is my birthday...BUT the birthday festivities began on friday as follows: *the vinsons gave me a 25 dollar gift certificate to target...go vinsons *sandy and rod gave me early birthday presents: the emperors new groove on dvd and nichole nordeman live at the door...yah sandy and rod *stacey (older sister) is here...sweet *brett kyle sandy and rod took me dancing in the 80's

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1068832880171455772003-11-14T10:01:00.000-08:002003-11-14T10:01:40.280-08:00

this is just what is on my mind... i spend a lot of time trying to figure out what other people need so that i can help them...in fact i will do whatever is necessary in order to help someone feel better, do better, be happy, or whatever their need is at the time...thats the way i am, its my nature...i can't help it, even if i didn't want to be this way i couldn't stop it...and i love it...it

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1067713755884710422003-11-01T11:09:00.000-08:002003-11-01T11:09:14.826-08:00

You awaken us to delight in Your praise, for You made us for Yourself, and our hearts are restless until they rest in You. -St. Augustine I have heard your prayer, I have seen your tears; behold, I will heal you. -2 Kings 20:5 But now for a brief moment grace has been shown from the Lord our God, to leave us an escaped remnant and to give us a peg in His holy place, that our God may enlighten

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1067635829566513112003-10-31T13:30:00.000-08:002003-10-31T13:30:28.323-08:00

bahahahahaha

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1066957741400206882003-10-23T18:09:00.000-07:002003-10-23T18:09:01.410-07:00

things i have learned from working at united... 1. not all old people are nice 2. the flowers are NEVER for you 3. way more than 10 items can fit in those little carry baskets when you are working the express line 4. you will always be 16...even though you are almost 23 and almost done with college... 5. you will never get away from all of the "high school gossip"...and you have to listen

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1066548788997873292003-10-19T00:33:00.000-07:002003-10-19T00:33:08.696-07:00

it was a good week...brokenness is entering....i had a major meltdown last sunday...but it was the cause of the goodness of the week. lets see...dad's birthday was this week...he's 51, happy birthday daddy. i had the house to myself all weekend, it was really really nice...yeah, super nice. i saw jodi today. i'm reading messy spirituality. dusty t. called to check on me yesterday, just to

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1065708234566535002003-10-09T07:03:00.000-07:002003-10-09T07:04:54.676-07:00

slowly dreaming quickly speaking wide awake, skin shed hopes laid bare alert and well aware tick tock beats her heart the time has come to lose control edging forward drawing near somehow she must shed this fear let go and live be quiet and see stop fading away drink it all in wait for the taste how could this life be such a waste His love turns around

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-106533439290309892003-10-04T23:13:00.000-07:002003-10-04T23:13:12.880-07:00

i like graham thanks graham for hanging out with me at the game and for being concerned about me when you were talking to jord way to go big daddy

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1065141413823818442003-10-02T17:36:00.000-07:002003-10-02T17:36:53.456-07:00

one thought first...i cried today at work...i cried a lot today actually because of the overwhelming feeling of inadequecy with being able to help and provied for the needs of those around me...mostly for those that i don't know personally but need help. how do you combine compassion with discipline? so i wrote this in response to what i wrote yesterday...its sort of the "other side"...the

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1065023252291753152003-10-01T08:47:00.000-07:002003-10-01T08:47:31.766-07:00

incandescent who is shattered by this light brokenness humility brilliant illumination scattered numbness falls life desire revelation redemption bright, dancing blinding... breathtaking captivating glowing exhausting refreshing life death passion this is what i've hoped for dreamed of second life Love sanctity holiness purity depth He.

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1064806352415835612003-09-28T20:32:00.000-07:002003-09-28T20:32:32.226-07:00

so as most of you guys have heard i'm feeling better these days...so lets just stay off of that subject haha...so since i was feeling better i decided to take advantage of my new freedom and go to the lake and try out brett's new wakeboard...i hurt my hand...but it was worth it, although i got frustrated because i was having a hard time twisting...but dude, it was the lake and brett and his dad

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1063850991107964842003-09-17T19:09:00.000-07:002003-09-17T19:09:51.110-07:00

would someone please shoot me in the head??? ok i have lots of things to say, so bear with me. i felt better the past two days, yippppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....so good in fact, that i even got to play basketball tonight to let off some steam....however, i haven't taken my medicine yet today, so we are hoping for the best. my mom cancelled my tests for friday...we'll just leave that one

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1063762588990233012003-09-16T18:36:00.000-07:002003-09-16T18:36:28.890-07:00

{singing} i'm the odd man out...lalalala why do these girls try to hurt my feelings...lalalala girls are stupid...lalalala except for kim and becky and hollie...lalalala my life is great...lalalala thats why i'm singing...lalalala um...this post (since it is posted in singing mode) might be due to the fact that i have had too much medicine today...

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1063636335871362922003-09-15T07:32:00.000-07:002003-09-15T07:32:15.866-07:00

this one shall be called...things that beth does that make her a freak...as my sister recited to me yesterday...here goes 1: sing out loud in public...say for insance in wal-mart or united...really loud...without knowing it...and then when i do notice it, laughing and singing even louder to make sure that all of those staring get a good show.......... 2: organize my closet...and this one is on

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1063633681321662582003-09-15T06:48:00.000-07:002003-09-15T06:48:01.223-07:00

did you know that an ostrich can weigh up to 300 lbs? whoa..thats one big bird.

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1063383324225033572003-09-12T09:15:00.000-07:002003-09-12T09:15:24.296-07:00

can we all just take a moment of silence for my empire records poster please....................................................................dang, that poster is sweet. i just sit in my bed and stare at it, this makes my life happy....shout out to empire records, oh and by the way the other night we were goofing off and i made a fake will because i don't really have anything that is like

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1063246244077922482003-09-10T19:10:00.000-07:002003-09-10T19:10:44.110-07:00

ok, so i don't mean to sound like i'm complaining at all if thats the way it sounds, i don't want that to be the way things come across at all, just to clear that up. i'm not complaining, i am nervous, and so i guess that makes it come out the way it shouldn't sometimes. i will say that it does suck however having to sit in my room all the time, BUT to make things so much better brett bought me

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1063173636672267502003-09-09T23:00:00.000-07:002003-09-09T23:00:36.710-07:00

update numero dos....and $250 some odd dollars later i have two more appointments and 2 more months of medicine to purchase...suck. so just in case you're wondering, its not a very pleasant, yet very embarrassing, experience going to get your kidneys checked out...we'll just leave that at that. so, i go, he pushes my tummy and back around, tells me to come back on the 19th for tests which

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1063031983344418922003-09-08T07:39:00.000-07:002003-09-08T07:39:43.290-07:00

what would you do if you only had 2 weeks to live...hmmm?

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1063030903083226492003-09-08T07:21:00.000-07:002003-09-08T07:21:43.170-07:00

aruba jamaica oooo i wanna take ya to bermuda bahama come on PRETTY MAMA key largo montego baby why don't we go to kokomo we'll get there fast and then we'll take it slow

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062867461136446712003-09-06T09:57:00.000-07:002003-09-06T09:57:41.046-07:00

#58: nathan spencer and his don't mess with texas shirt..that rocks

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062817650932105122003-09-05T20:07:00.000-07:002003-09-05T20:07:30.943-07:00

update numero uno...i am going to get blood work done in the morning so that i don't have to do that on tuesday...so this means that a: we will know for sure how bad my infection is, b: that i don't have to wait to get it done on tuesday, and c: because i don't have to wait they can go ahead and run all of the other tests on me like run dye through my blood so that they can get a good look at my

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062788575274642722003-09-05T12:02:00.000-07:002003-09-05T12:02:55.290-07:00

#57: oh ode to pearce

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062788492815093142003-09-05T12:01:00.000-07:002003-09-05T12:01:32.840-07:00

oh ode to pearce roses are red violets are blue without pearce's sarcasm what would i do oh ode to pearce he goes by his last name his first name is jason isn't that lame he listens to 800 cds a day and reads 500 books he sleeps with a little black mask on his eyes but he isn't gay oh ode to pearce what else can i say i love this guy so his sarcasm can stay ...there you go pearce...i tried

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062774921307259362003-09-05T08:15:00.000-07:002003-09-05T08:15:21.376-07:00

#56: kim, just kim, her and her posts already made the list, but i do believe that she deserves a number of her own holla

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062773994428999702003-09-05T07:59:00.000-07:002003-09-05T08:00:24.160-07:00

fyi so, bubble toes by jack johnson, lets just consider that #55, but he talks about how her feet are infested with tar balls...well, maybe i'm dumb, but i didn't know what that meant, until now and i thought that you other jack johnson fans who also didn't know might like some light shed on the subject: it's tar that gets stuck on your feet from the Santa Barbara beaches...who knew? way to go

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-106277374584707682003-09-05T07:55:00.000-07:002003-09-05T07:55:45.836-07:00

thanks kim for the prayers, i got sick again last night...so, i can't wait for tuesday...but enough of that on to better things like...................more favorites!! :) #41: the number 41, :)..i really do like this number #42: thunderstorm music #43: the beach #44: drunk customers #45: video games....for real #46: friends who show up in the middle of the night because you are sick #47: dusty

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062773089088280012003-09-05T07:44:00.000-07:002003-09-05T07:44:49.033-07:00

ok ok so i'm not really mad at the world....

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i'm mad at the world

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062700132269727712003-09-04T11:28:00.000-07:002003-09-04T11:28:52.226-07:00

#31: cooking #32: jordan #33: drew #34: eyebrow rings #35: rain #36: sidewalk chalk #37: no work #38: empire records #39: the huge poster of corky romano's head we have hanging in our window #40: american eagle

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062693001723309612003-09-04T09:30:00.000-07:002003-09-04T09:30:01.766-07:00

favorite things...in no particular order :) #1: cheesecake ice cream #2: my hair being played with #3: naps #4: strongbad #5: adam ludwig #6: saving silverman #7: counting crows #8: popcorn chicken..i think i'm obsessed #9: derek webb #10: basketball #11: sarcasm #12: alone time #13: four wheelers #14: playing the guitar #15: the lake #16: hot tubs #17: cal and kate #18: sisters #19: kim's posts

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062692438729096352003-09-04T09:20:00.000-07:002003-09-04T09:20:38.946-07:00

uh, so lets give a shout-out to things that will never come back in style...and things that shouldn't come back in style....here it goes: 1) parachute pants...uh you know those mc hammer pants...i have some pretty trendy friends and they couldn't even bring it back...that would be the day............ 2) the tight ankle jeans with the scrunch socks over them...yah i love the 80's just as much as

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062609829680561292003-09-03T10:23:00.000-07:002003-09-03T10:23:49.610-07:00

nothing escapes the governing of God.... For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles. Therefore God gave them

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062518191097125232003-09-02T08:56:00.000-07:002003-09-02T08:56:30.983-07:00

so right now i'm at the vinsons with kate and cal and i'm sitting in their desk chair which has a "homedics" massage/heat thingie on it...so i turned it on and it can massage your butt, your lower back and/or your upper back while providing heat to each part...its kind of weird, i'm not sure that i like it....we'll see if i do by the end of this post... school starts today...yuck...thats all i

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062087060675069932003-08-28T09:11:00.000-07:002003-08-28T09:11:00.743-07:00

here they are: sleep chinese food sleep sweet tea sleep hang out time with hollie (sister) sleep dancing sleep being at the lake sleep office space sleep chips and salsa from chilis sleep rap

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1062084511875846172003-08-28T08:28:00.000-07:002003-08-28T08:28:32.006-07:00

so i haven't had a fever in almost two days, so thats good...and i'm feeling better, but i haven't been doing much so we'll see how it goes when i work from 2-11 at the big blue U tomorrow...yuck all of the roommates are back finally, its been nice but we haven't got to hang out all together that much, we did take a small trip to bahama bucks last night though because megan had never been...it

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1061680022284856402003-08-23T16:07:00.000-07:002003-08-23T16:07:02.333-07:00

so i'm sick...........apparently really sick because i have to go see a specialist this coming week for my kidneys so they can tell me how much damage i have and what i need to do...everyone is kind of freaking out because my doctor was so concerned and because i had to be sent home from work because i started shaking so bad and i got dizzy and lightheaded and had a horrible headache and stomach

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1061311226031406122003-08-19T09:40:00.000-07:002003-08-19T09:40:25.993-07:00

there is a new strongbad e-mail FINALLY today...it made me happy, but you can't access it unless you go the main page...these guys need to get in gear and keep those things coming...ok, thats all i have...that was my least pertinent thought of the morning...the other ones are too long...haha...ok bye...

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1061216723758988282003-08-18T07:25:00.000-07:002003-08-18T07:25:23.810-07:00

{idon't pretend to know what you know now please don't pretend to know what's on my mind if we already knew everything that everybody knows we would have nothing to learn tonight and we would have nothing to show tonight but everybody thinks that everybody knows about everybody else but nobody knows anything about themselves because they're all worried about everybody else}

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1061215023362923082003-08-18T06:57:00.000-07:002003-08-18T06:57:03.410-07:00

did you miss me? right, so i'm back in lubbock...here's the rundown. the wedding was perfect, jordan said that it was everything that she wanted it to be, so to me, thats perfect...and the reception was probably the funnest thing i've done all summer, so that also, to me, is perfect. i have millions of pictures, so if you feel the need to see the beach wedding, holla at me. {i feel that it is

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1060796643105813092003-08-13T10:44:00.000-07:002003-08-13T10:48:48.753-07:00

what is it about throwing a frisbee around on the beach that sparks a man's masculinity???

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You awaken us to delight in Your praise, for You made us for Yourself and our hearts are restless until they rest in you. -St. Augustine The beach is so stinkin' peaceful...nice use of the word stinkin' huh?? Anyways, we were at the beach last night watching a meteor shower, well trying to at least, the moon was so bright that we couldn't see but a few, and we just stood there wading in the

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1060745248751686202003-08-12T20:27:00.000-07:002003-08-12T20:27:28.776-07:00

i always wanted to live on the beach, i'm in corpus for jord's wedding and i am almost in heaven...it is so amazing here and i can't wait to get back on the beach tomorrow, just me, my cowboy hat, my sunglasses and a bathing suit and i could be set for life. wish you guys were here enjoying this with me, the wedding's not until friday so you guys have plenty of time to get here, i'll be awaiting

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1060745078399296542003-08-12T20:24:00.000-07:002003-08-12T20:24:38.423-07:00

so today i just admitted to myself that i have a horrible self-image...i think i have ugly skin, ok not like actual skin, but you know what i'm saying...i'm not sure where that comes from but i think it holds me back from a lot of things and keeps me in certain situations that make me feel worse...i'll write more later, too many eyes watching...but if anyone has any thoughts, feel free to comment

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my slinky cravings of the day.... ben harper jack johnson chocolate donuts playing the guitar cuddling... haha riding 4-wheelers now that would be the life :)

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Overwhelmed in splendid rapture Dazzling drops of grace surround my soul This breathtaking view of gripping salvation Your face...Your hands Oh God - my heart explodes with adoration You engulf me in ecstasy And contain me in Your bliss The powerful sound of Your voice fascinates me Enchanted by Your grasp Thrilled by Your desires Caressed by Your touch Threads of mercy clothe my soul This

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vulnerability seeps into my skin and slithers through my veins to attempt to crush my soul - my entire being - the very essence of this little life. if there's one thing in my life that i detest more than anything else, its vulnerability. for me - i feel - like its weakness...i don't like to feel defenseless, naked (if you will), or susceptible to anything or in the worst case anyone because

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1060363100397021432003-08-08T10:18:00.000-07:002003-08-08T10:18:20.463-07:00

a day in the life...so last night i had a boy tell me that i was ugly..ok i can deal with that, he doesn't have to think that i'm pretty or cure or hot or whatever it is these days that you boys are referring to it as, and for the most part i even appreciated his bluntness and lack of comical comments or conversation either before that or after that. he was certain of his view and got straight

bethnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5643979.post-1059962840323956982003-08-03T19:07:00.000-07:002003-08-03T19:07:20.376-07:00

my mind is tired but my little heart has the energy of a two-year-old it seems...all i have been doing for the past couple of weeks is sort through emotions and thoughts with the hope of becoming the person that i need to be...so right now my mind is left exhausted by my sould and my heart want to keep going. and that also means that all of my thoughts are scattered and i'm not sure that i can

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